month of MAY where things happens all at once

It has been a whirlwind of events. And things have been on the downside for quite a while. And it seems all the bad things coming together during these April and May transitions.

I've got lousy streamyx connection, at times it was totally unconnected to the internet for days. Luckily i have somewhat grow abit away from being too attached to the internet. If not, it would have been like hell for me.

And then, my father in law has been falling sick and hospitalised for pneumonia and lung infections. After fighting for his life for about a week, he finally passed away last wednesday on 8th May 2008, about after 1 am. It was so sudden for us. For the last time i see him was earlier April. He's 74 this year. And he was an able and healthy person, always traveling from Johor back to Penang to see his relatives alone.

It was saddening to see him goes like this. I guess, this is life cycle. We can never know what will happens tomorrow. And so, we have to go back to Johor Bahru for his funeral ceremony, which lasted 5 days. Me being pregnant, was exempted from carrying those traditional furneral rites. The cost alone is really jaw dropping to me. I don't know how my sister in law handles such event. My own father's furneral does not cost that much, and was within the 'white money' paid.
I guess that's the difference of prudent people and those who spends excessively.

Experiencing this funeral rites, i really thinks its kind of a wastage to spend so much money on one such event. I wonder if all chinese have are 'face' ? Is it really necessary ?
I would be for sure, would make a will for my children, not to have too lavish funeral ceremony for me. Why waste money on a dead body ? It's enough to remember me while they can. I rather be remembered for my works and deeds done. My body parts should be donated to those who needs them, and after fire cremated the rest of mine body, it should be just discarded to the open sea. After all, i loves the sea and water. ;)

I have been sleeping most of the two three days after we returned. Don't know why i feels so tired. I am just counting my days until my delivery day. Which i hope would quickly comes. I'm so tired of being pregnant. For i can't do much in present state. I can't walk much, i can't work, i can't do anything much. I am like a useless and lazy person right now.