if we could turn back the clock...

i wonder what i would had wanted to change most ?
Everything are connected to one another. That its existence, are connected to the other.

If i would rewrite my own history again, i wonder if i would do it differently ?

I remember as a child, i had felt lonely at times. Eventhough i have lots of friends, siblings...There exists many peoples around me. But this lonely is in the form of emotions , i guess.

That's why everyone has differing personality and preferences, and even ideology of life.
To get two person with such constrasting differences together are no easy feats. Which is why, there exist 'loves' to bonds two peoples together, to bonds family together, and to bonds friends together.

But, what happens when loves has gone missing ? The going gets tough, and suddenly everything was puts into perspective. It's all back to square one again.

It sounded so philosophical, is it ?

At the time of writing this, i am not feeling any happy at all. Even stressed to some points. Breaking down is harder than i think as the practical side of me, as usual ruling me not to do any foolish things.

Life is getting very tough at the moments, that i feels like the four walls are squaring up on me, leaving me no space to breathes.

Should i rewrite my own history, and not let anything, anybody to dictate it ?